I just made another blog called "You could call it beauty" but I don't really know how long it will last, or if I'll ever put anything on it. And I'm almost worried that my focusing on the outward isn't what I should be doing. Because God focuses on the heart.
Anyways, I don't really have much of an update, but I wanted to put something on here so that I keep blogging. Hmmmm... well, I'm sort of discouraged still. And God isn't really doing a whole lot (or it seems like it) in my life. It seems like I'm sinking lower and lower into sin, which is probably what's happening. Basically, I have a few habits which I just can't break. I don't know what to do. They're like ruining my life. I think that if I told my parents... not that they don't know... but if I really asked for help, then maybe it would be easier. I'm tired of confessing sin and asking God to forgive me. I guess it's really teaching me just how patient God is, but I don't want to learn this way!
My goal in life is to become like the Virtuous Woman in Proverbs 31. I know that's a pretty common goal, but I'd really like to be like her. And I'd also like to live up to the meaning of my name, Hannah, which means Gracious. I'm not very gracious right now, and I'm such a bad example to my siblings! Here I am, supposed to be the one they all look up to, and then I miserably fail. I guess that's where God wants me though. I think He wants me to be completely broken before Him. (Sigh.)
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